i honestly didn’t think it would happen.
i’m not sure when or where in my life i started underestimating myself, but let’s just say it’s been my worst habit for at least two decades of my life (not excluding my bad taste in guys – until recently, of course – but we’ve been there already, so…or perhaps they’re related?). from walking away from a spot on the practice team for a really good traveling softball team with a really good coach at 13, to putting off applying to law school for 12 years, i’ve really just kept digging myself into a hole in the sand, keeping me from reaching my fullest potential.
but not anymore.
i start law school in the fall, and i’m equal parts anxious to start and terrified. part of me just wants to get in there and get to the part where i (hopefully) figure it out, and part of me is like, “shit, what did i get myself into?” it’s not easy and it’s not meant to be easy, and i am slowly coming to terms with that.
just because something is hard, though, doesn’t mean we should shy away from it. the one thing i’ve learned over the years is that no matter how difficult something seems, or how much it takes us out of our comfort zone, we survive it, and we’re better for it, even if we fail in some way. honestly, starting, taking the first step, initiating your plan, that’s the truly hardest part – every thing after that is really just showing up and putting in the work. now hopefully i’m not going to fail law school, but should the worst happen, i know i can get through it, as long as i show up.
i’m so excited for this new journey in my life. it’s been a long time coming, and i know it’s going to take me a while, but i’ve found something i truly love, and the end result will be so good for me and my people. and all i had to do was take that first step.