baby girl, ain’t a one of us who has time for half-assed ANYthing. whether it be friendship, workouts, projects, or a relationship. you have to look at it from an all-or-nothing point-of-view to determine if it’s worth your time and effort.
some people are afraid of taking the plunge into something because they can’t control the outcome (i’m one of these people, too, in some instances). they’re worried that they’ll ruin whatever good thing they already have, or that they’ll lose more than they’ll gain. now, we can and will never be able to 100% predict the outcome of any action or inaction. there are far too many what-ifs to be entirely accurate. so why hold back? why deny yourself the chance of something greater than your current situation because there’s a chance it could go bad?
i think what i need, or want, or am looking for, is a knight and a sword. someone who is ready and willing to ride into battle with me, but also ready and willing to ride into battle for me. someone who understands that sometimes “i’m tired,” means that i haven’t had enough sleep because of all the things i’m involved in, and sometimes “i’m tired,” means that i’m figuratively tired of doing all the things that i have to do on my own or without much help or appreciation, and just need a hug, a good meal, a beer, and a netflix binge. i haven’t experienced that kind of love, yet.
what i have experienced a lot of is half-assed lovers. people who were too afraid to lose what i brought to the table, and who weren’t willing to put in 100% effort to create a bond that is unbreakable. now, i believe in seasons in life. i believe that sometimes we meet a person who is good for us in the moment that we are in, but they aren’t always meant to move on with us to the next season. but i also believe in a forever kind of love. i believe in a partnership rooted in taking a chance, in the adventurous spirit, in magic mixed with enough mayhem to change your life’s course.
i’m good with how i handle the good and bad in my life, right now, in this season of my life, where i am enjoying being on my own and rediscovering who i am. but i know there’s someone out there who i want to share that with, too. and i think it’s ok to be a little bit picky about who that person is, especially because i’ve waited so long to share my life with them.
so, ask yourself, is there any area in your life (or love-life) that feels like it’s not at 100%? if so, then i challenge you to do something about it. maybe that means you move on from it, maybe that means you prioritize it more in your routine. but don’t just let it dwindle under half-assed attention, love. you’ll feel so much lighter if you take the time to give the things that are important to you more attention, and rid yourself of the things (or the people) that you can do without.