phew. it’s been a tough few weeks, emotionally & mentally. i think i just might be drained, and spreading myself too thin in some areas of my life, but i have a hard time letting things go, so i’m really just trying to find a way to reorganize, prioritize, and move forward. i’m trying so hard to not burn out, which i think is why i’ve been so emotional lately. vicious cycle, no?
i posted something about dating in san antonio on my facebook page over the weekend that resulted in a lot of comments. i originally posted it to be funny and not self-deprecating or pitiful, but the post ended up showing me that a lot of my female peers are feeling the same way about dating. that is – we’re not meeting the right guy, but it’s not entirely because they aren’t out there, we just aren’t ready to meet them yet. on one hand, i have a lot of love to give, on the other, i haven’t met the person who i would like to share my free time with. i’ve been a little “selfish” with my free time, because i think it’s important to put myself first right now. so i feel like it’s okay for me to be silly, or “amusing” about my love life (or lack-thereof) because sometimes my experiences are amusing. and as i’ve always said, we only get one life, so why not enjoy it?
my point is this, coco chanel had it right. we can get caught up in all the “need-to’s” and “want-to’s” (“i need to do this, i want to do that”), but at the end of the day, if we’re not amusing ourselves and our loved ones, then maybe we need to take a step back and re-evaluate. don’t let the hard times get you down. take your time, recover, and keep on truckin’.